Thoughts: 2022-03-27: Solitude and Cockatoos

Today’s soundtrack is brought to you by a couple of Nomads in a Camper with Cats…and now a Dog. My sister and her beau have recommended a couple of albums that I, frankly, did not need any arm twisting to convince me to play. SNFU: In the Meantime and in Between Time and Master of Reality by Black Sabbath. Two great albums that I love. So I dug in. Both albums are all killer no filler, though Sweetleaf is over done for me.

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Cockatoo Quill

Drinkin' again,

I'm not thinkin' ahead,

I got that shrinking feeling,

That only grows larger,

Day by day,

Loggers buy lager.

And I'm still sitting here,

Writing my will with a cockatoo quill,

The one thing I own,

One thing that's not on loan,

One thing I haven't sold, yet.

It's so easy just to fuck it all

And go for the mersyndol,

Or something stronger to get me back

On the wagon I just fell off of,

Another swig,

One last gulp,

One more tablet to pop,

Anything to get me to start

Working on what I've been putting off.

And I'm still sitting here...[x2]

I'm on a boat that doesn't float,

And I can't swim,

That's the predicament that I'm currently wrestling with and I'm going to win,

And I'm going to win,

And I'm going to win,

And I won't be pinned.

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=UtEsHFVFxCc&feature=share

This song is great, reminds me of my current situation…in a way. Chi is singing about addiction, but he is writing his “will” which I can relate to to a certain extent. I do not have a quill and ink, but it would be cool if I did. My pen and paper is a laptop, a bit better candidate for hock than a feather and ink I guess.

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Solitude

My name it means nothing, my fortune is less

My future is shrouded in dark wilderness

Sunshine is far away, clouds linger on

Everything I posessed, now they are gone

They are gone They are gone

Oh, where can I go to and what can I do?

Nothing can please me, only thoughts are of you

You just left when I begged you to stay

I've not stopped crying since you went away

You went away You went away.

The world is a lonely place, you're on your own

Guess I will go home, sit down and mourn

Crying and thinking is all that I do

Memories I have remind me of you Of you

Of you, Of you

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=5Yx13RY6Vdk&feature=share

Solitude is such a sad song. It is the definition of melancholy it seems. I can relate to the feeling of loss he is going over here. I have lost many people I care about. That is the easy part of being the one who is sick. Others will mourn, I will just sleep. Mourning can be a dreadful business. I hope you all don’t end up too sad for losing me. I hope having access to my thoughts helps bridge that gap.

I have really enjoyed these musical deep dives. It is tough to find the time. I always liked a long commute for that. You can really get into songs when you are just driving along. Now I have lots of time on my hands. I will continue to listen to albums in their entirety for the foreseeable future. If there is something you think I need to sit with, let me know. I want to experience the best of the best. Why not? I have the time and the means.